My Gay Life

R

Your words are tempting
Your body aluring

A simple breath on my body
And caress from your hand

Will simply unleash me
Making me horny

Come to my side
Stand right before me

And watch as I fall
Bringing you glory

Intangled in truths
Some which are lies

Waiting for freedom
To settle my life

I wish I could leave
I feel I must wait

I wish for the answers
But know I must wait

And if it weren't for one man
I wouldn't be



Written for that one man and I hope he hears me.

In the waking hours
Of my dreams
I see that waits for me
He breathes so soft
And feels so smooth
And when we kiss
I blink to see
The dreamy man
Right next to me

Times have come
And times have gone

And each time I doubt
Your love stays strong

"I know my heart
And know my love
And know in time
We'll rise above"

Again your words
Have set me free

And now I know
We're meant to be

You rushed upon me
And aroused my emotions
I wasn't ready
And ignored every notion

You saw that I struggled
And spoke for a moment

"Mouth to ear
I hope you hear
I long for you
Long for love
Long for this
And your love"

Your words were pure
And brought forth tears
And now with you
My life is clear

I'll fight for this love
I'll for what's true

I'll fight for it all
Including for you

Just show me you want me
Just show me you love me

And then only then
Will I fight cause I love you

I lay thy angel
On thy chest
Nor good a time
Then now to rest
So close thy eyes
Whilst I sing
And dream sweet dreams
Of things to be

Wings so beautiful
Colors so strong

Freedom to fly
And seen by all

Our spirits
Are this

And shouldn't be lost

So spread out your wings
Show off your colors

Allow yourself freedom
And to be seen by all

A rose that blossoms
Before its time

Quickly shrivels
In our minds

Though its beauty
Can't be rejected

Pressure of man
Comes down to crush it

But if looked at with love
And seen for its beauty

The rose will just strengthen
And grow with its beauty

 I have long felt isolated and alone ,but that has changed. We laughed at everything we felt like. Since I met you there hasn't been a day without a smile or moment I felt like I used to. It's all changed. Even when I was serious and got a little sad you always found a way to cheer me up. From that first day I felt important, equal, and happy. From that first day we became close friends and from there it grew. We grew, together. My memories are no longer of the pain I felt and saw everyday. They're about my rare times of happieness. You've changed me and made me see the good in life. Your always here for me. Running your fingers through my hair, showing your affection. I love you, never grew old coming out through your lips. You give me a kiss each a morning making my day impossible to go bad. "I love you," you say one day as we look into the stars and it happens. I'm over taken by the final sign and I give in to it all. I turn and look in your eyes and say I love you. Then we kiss and say it again, then we kiss, and the rest just happened so poeticly. I love you never grows old coming out of your lips. 

                                                                                                                                                                 Chris

You drink way to much
You drink till you're numb

Each day that you drink
My heart becomes numb

How could I love you
How could I care

When each that you drink
You do nothing but hurt me

You like when I cry
You like when bleed

But each day that you're sober
You take care of me

You wonder what happened
And I speak with a lie

Telling a story
I wish would be why

The urge
The want

The tension
The kiss

The moment
You leave

It comes
To an end

Your touch
Is amazing

Your words
Aren't remembered

And when it comes
To me speaking

You knod
Like it's nothing

The urge
The want

The tension
The kiss

The sex
Is amazing

But not
How I live

I feel empty
I feel nothing

Nothing without you

Your love was mine
My heart was filled

But now you're gone

Now it's empty
Now it's nothing

Nothing without you

Just empty
Just nothing

Just me

If you take my hand
I won't let go

If you kiss my lips
I'll want more
And...
If you say I love you
My life is yours

Searching, waiting,
Looking, hoping

Oh I wish
I could find it

Find the hope
Find the will

Find the thing
That's really real

The thing
That's life

The thing
For me

Oh I wish
I could find it

Find the love
Find the one

Find the person
That shows me love

He'll be my life
He'll be for me

He'll Be The One
That Sets Me Free

It hurts me
It pains me

I see you
I see him

I know
I'm nothing

Nothing of interest
Nothing to you

I can't help it
I feel for you

It hurts
I see you

I want you
I can't

I wish
But can't

It hurts
The love

The pain
It's real

Why
Why me

Why me
Why

I tried to talk
I tried to speak

I tried
I did

You just ignored
You didn't listen

You spoke your words
You said your lies

You lost me
You ignored me

I've moved on
I tried to tell you

You just ignored
you didn't listen

I'm gone
You lost me

I'm tired of this
I'm trying to tell you

You know what
Just fuck you

You won't listen
Fuck you

I'm out...Bye

Have I lost it
Have I

Did I lose
All but me

It has happened
I'm all alone

I looked for that one
And lost all of my love

I lost
I have

My heart is cooled
And love is gone

It's gone
It's lost

It turned to ice
And made a lock

My heart is cooled
My heart is locked
But...
Will you unlock it
Will you unfreeze it

Will You

I want you
More then a friend

More then a hi
And how are you

I want you
More then what we have

More then a glance
And smiles

I want you
More then just a friend